Today Deecember 27 2009,Sunday must be just another day I thought when my dad woke me up in the morning only to realize that today my mom was going to Kottayam to visit her relatives…So I was entitled the duty to see her off at the railway station today morning.After seeing her off I thought how would this day be???I knew I will have to do everything right from making tea to washing the dishes(which I hate…).So coming back alone through the deserted alleys of Trivandrum I realized that my life was so much dependent of a few people and I guess its about time that I mentioned about them without whom my Journey Called Life will be incomplete…
The 5 Pillars Of My Life…
This seems to be a frequent dialogue from movies but still it applies perfectly to the most important people in my life…
Now look at the picture-"The 5 pillars supporting my life…"
Now you would be guessing what happened to one of them??
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Just continue reading and you will know…
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So till now my life or else my Journey Called Life is supported by 5 pillars…So here goes…
Now the first pillar is my Dad…
My dad or dada as I call him is the person whom I admire the most. He is an ex-navy and I have always tried to be like him. The stories about his various adventures were I guess were well beyond the definitions of adventure for me and these stories are those which have always fascinated me and made me believe that life will have something for me also. I have always tried to walk, talk and shape my character like his but I’ve failed miserably (…Hope someday I will be like you Dada…).But one thing that I guess I have learned from him is to value relations of the heart more than artificial relations like same religion, same bloodline and such stupid things .More than just namesake relatives he values these relations more.
People even after just talking to him once value him and respect him a lot (I had thought it might be due to his beard so I also tried sporting a beard but nothing changed in my life…) I guess it’s an art which only a selected few like my dad could master. So in short he’s sort of superhero for me…So thank you dad for inspiring me to do something and giving me all the support that I needed…
Next comes my Mom or Amma(as I prefer it…)
Days like today when she’s not around are the days when I realized her true value (It’s not bcoz I have to do the household chores).The vacuum that she has left no one else can fill…It’s very well said that I respect and admire my Dad but I love my Mom (It’s not that I don’t like my dad…But Mom’s somewhat special…)
She’s a person who had sacrificed her well paid job in Europe to look after the family (It kind of requires some strong will to do such an act I guess…).I had always hated it when she keeps on calling me when I was late or else when she read my diary (now I use double protection…) or else when she used to say something in front of my friend’s as if I were a child (totally embarrassing moment’s…).And finally the biggest problem I see in her is she thinks with her heart and not with her brain…But in spite of all these I love You…
But she’s one of my good friends and my favorite time pass is probably annoying her (I mean ‘chori’ying her…).
Next comes my sister…
The person with who helps me polish my fighting skills and whom I annoy the most but secretly she’s my favorite. I don’t guess she respects me a lot (because more than cheta she calls me ‘eda…’ ‘patti’…) but I know she loves me a lot…
Actually it’s difficult to say whether I enjoy annoying my sister or my mother more. And usually mom teams up with me to irritate my sister…hehe…And sometimes they both team up to irritate me…And the next thing about her is she’s mom’s most trusted spy…
I used to hate it when I had to do compromises just because I was born 3 years early. Then waking up early to drop her to school (which unfortunately happens to be near my collegeL) and again picking her after extra classes. But now I guess these small responsibilities has a hidden joy in them (But it takes some time to realize it…).
Now about the pillar which used to support me but now support’s my life from a distance with only prayers to give and nothing else…
This pillar was the one which I had considered the strongest …but my fate… it’s being forcibly (very very forcibly…) separated from supporting me by some factors which are beyond my control (and that’s the saddest part I can do nothing about it…Just wait…).But they fail to understand that in your attempt to separate my life from it you can eventually destroy the pillar itself.
Now only time shall prove how strong the most beautiful pillar of my life was…
I had always thought that I was sort of blessed when this pillar came to support my life (…which was totally by some co incidence…)…Whenever my life was about to fall it’s this pillar which had supported me the most…And when the separation had started I thought my life would come to an end had it not been for my central and most important pillar… (But the day when this pillar is fully separated even my central pillar won’t be strong enough to support me…That day will surely be THE END of My Journey Called Life…).I guess many of you could guess what this pillar means to me but more about it I will tell you later(Sorry…But can’t help)… So again thank you for teaching me what life really is…
Then comes the central pillar my Friends…
Now the true value of it I realized (as I said above) when one pillar was being separated. It had supported me the most and that too whenever I needed it the most…And there’s no need I guess to say anything more about this pillar because what I’m today is because of you. I am lucky to have a handful of good friend whom I would like to mention here Vishnu,Sai,Jayesh,Shijil,Amal,VishnuChandran…Thank you guys for everything.
So here goes ‘The 5 Pillars of My Life’… I guess everyone’s life is supported by many pillars and for me 5 is just the beginning now when I continue my journey called Life I’m sure many pillars will fall and new one’s have to take their place…But I guess that’s what life is all about. For me the very essence of my life is uncertainty…I guess I have started to learn to live with the twists and turns of life…And hope many more pillars will come to support me in the future…
Now about my journey…It has reached a destination from where I don’t know where to go. Now I find many path’s unfolding before me. In short life now has become a big question mark. Now my situation is clearly depicted by the following pic…
“Stuck in an Inferno without knowing where to go.” If someone could help me your advices are always welcome…
And hence I Continue My Journey Called Life…!!!
